Okay, so something happened today. And to avoid issues that may arise that, that's all I'm going to say. Essentially I didn't get a job that I was pretty much assured, and told my parents. Well to make an excruciatingly painful story short, I lost my mother's respect. Now, I know nearly everyone will side with her if they find out what was going on and I may reveal later on, but still. I have like 4 people in life, two of them have no respect for me now the other two I call my best friends and would never lose respect for me for what I did.
But here's what really bothers me. I'm a good person, you ask any established member of this forum that knows me and they will tell you the same. I may be unlucky, have dangerous tendencies on trips, and make poor choices but I'm still a good person. Ask any girl that I've tried to date in the last 6 years, to them, I'm too nice. I'm a genuinely good person, I stand up for those who are too weak to do though for themselves, I protect my friends, and the age old classic I hold doors for old ladies...hell anyone that is behind me.
So one action, one thing that I do to make it so my life isn't completely miserable (which is getting better by the way, thanks for starting to write about how I need to feel better about myself before reading any further) makes me a completely unreliable person.
I don't know if I should feel bad abut this but I've kind of lost a bit of respect for my family on this one. Normally I can see where they are coming from but I've just made my mind up on this. I'm not taking it, I'm a good person not a robot and I have no intentions of being anything other than what I am. It's taken me years and many good friends to realize that I finally know who I am, it's not who you want me to be, not who I want to be, not who the government wants me to be, and sure as hell not who my parents want me to be (apparently). I guess if anyone asks or even reads this I will elaborate but I'm not really comfortable with that at this point. Message me on facebook or something if you really do want to know more but I don't know. Thanks for stopping by, have a nice one.
But here's what really bothers me. I'm a good person, you ask any established member of this forum that knows me and they will tell you the same. I may be unlucky, have dangerous tendencies on trips, and make poor choices but I'm still a good person. Ask any girl that I've tried to date in the last 6 years, to them, I'm too nice. I'm a genuinely good person, I stand up for those who are too weak to do though for themselves, I protect my friends, and the age old classic I hold doors for old ladies...hell anyone that is behind me.
So one action, one thing that I do to make it so my life isn't completely miserable (which is getting better by the way, thanks for starting to write about how I need to feel better about myself before reading any further) makes me a completely unreliable person.
I don't know if I should feel bad abut this but I've kind of lost a bit of respect for my family on this one. Normally I can see where they are coming from but I've just made my mind up on this. I'm not taking it, I'm a good person not a robot and I have no intentions of being anything other than what I am. It's taken me years and many good friends to realize that I finally know who I am, it's not who you want me to be, not who I want to be, not who the government wants me to be, and sure as hell not who my parents want me to be (apparently). I guess if anyone asks or even reads this I will elaborate but I'm not really comfortable with that at this point. Message me on facebook or something if you really do want to know more but I don't know. Thanks for stopping by, have a nice one.
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